can’t play to win

can only play to love

i can explain this this way certainly, if it helps share help others. in regards to ‘security’: i am fully aware and do intentionally participate best i can manage given my circumstantial variation in attentive bandwidth as a 3d creature (somehow one of the lightest but most dense of them/us). however, i cannot not operate in ill-logic or unsound logic systems. quadrants. the possibilities exist in which: a can be fear/love. b can (amend trust into love as trust/love) also be fear/love. so together any a/b: fear/fear, fear/love, love/fear, love/love. so as an: either an a or a b . . . me one. i can completely control the outcome of any a/b pair, infinitely, in (and only in) one particular direction) so to fear as one is to ultimately and also immediately and irreversibly doom 1) myself yes 2) the other, any other, all others, ad infinitum. ipso facto: fear so. but love i can do it by myself without a node logic dependency. but love freely unconditional as outside of the pcb i be… bees. now, as a or b in love free, now and not until now had the communal opportunity to both a and b finite in entanglement quantum jargon-speakingly-ing-ly-ly. so that’s 3 squares if i care to look, but regardless whether i look or not it is there unable to not be seen. but those odds, algorithmically, instill terror sheer anxiety and doom-casting always certainly. as they would, as they should. but we lost. every. one. every. time. just because: by rule of law a quadrant sans love is never to be a quadrant at all after all. this choice i make, have made, will make again. is me deciding we should have some chance to appear to (ourselves or to ourselves via others) maybe be at least partially or imaginarily or just pretending to be…. any shade you like… free.